tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-195319202011-12-14T19:57:40.316-07:00Rants and non-sequiturs...you'll find it here...Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger321100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-49798566822569046322007-07-21T15:28:00.000-06:002007-07-21T16:58:49.438-06:00

I finally got the rest of my stuff from Sam's apartment. There was a certain finality to it all. It is now completely over. And after the initial shock of that, I realized that it's a good thing. I'm glad it's over. I'm glad that I can be on my own and not need him to be happy. In fact, I relish in knowing that he is worse off than I am. I know that sounds vindictive, but I feel better knowing

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-43633285241811787592007-07-11T13:54:00.000-06:002007-07-11T14:12:13.424-06:00

Spawning is something I will never do. I have come to the realization that I will never have kids. I'm not equipped for it. Sure, I like them...to a point. Sure, they're fun to hang out with. But can you drink with them? No. Can they just pick up and go whereever, whenever? No. Then there is the fact that I am naturally absentminded. What if I forget the kid at the mall? And if I'm in a bad mood?

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-66851286206663100722007-02-18T19:17:00.000-07:002007-02-20T00:19:41.196-07:00

This was my birthday weekend and I definitely had a great one. My Dad was in town and my cousin and her friends were there...it was awesome. It's been years since I have celebrated my birthday with friends and/or family. Or since I have been able to celebrate it without having to share it. It was all about me and I loved it. I wish that all of my friends and Gamal could have celebrated with me

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-40528453032632767692007-01-08T06:42:00.000-07:002007-05-09T07:55:51.766-06:00

2 years ago I moved to Colorado. I moved here because there was a promise of a future with the man I loved. I left behind a good career in Los Angeles to be with this man and support him in all that he wanted to do in order to be successful since he was unable to do so there. Now I'm here...on a completely different path. I have a new career and he is still the same guy doing the same thing...

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-51078134320695912172007-01-07T07:55:00.000-07:002007-01-07T08:05:45.758-07:00

It appears that I have finally managed to see the light and move on from my last relationship. For whatever insane reason, I have been hanging on to a pipe dream for the last 6 months and have now finally realized that that pipe dream will never come true.As they say a leopard cannot change his stripes and Sam is never gong to be become the person I need him to be. I should have realized it

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1162762550279578012006-11-05T14:21:00.000-07:002006-11-09T21:27:46.646-07:00

There is not much new going on but I must say that things are working out quite nicely with my roommate. We are learning each others good moments and bad moments and have learned to do the dance that you do when you know the other person does not want to interact.I have started doing things on my own and it feels good. I'm trying to spend more time with people and not holed up in my apartment

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1157381251537244632006-09-04T08:42:00.000-06:002006-09-04T08:47:33.160-06:00

It's been about 2 weeks now since I've moved out and so far so good. Sam and I have actually been hanging out over the last week. Not every night but we've seen each other a couple of times. He even spent the night Saturday night - in fact that was momentous...he hung out with myself and my roomie. We had a few drinks at the apartment, watched a movie and went to the Waffle House for grits. It

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1156168130495210462006-08-21T07:45:00.000-06:002006-08-21T07:48:50.506-06:00

I moved into my new apartment last night and spent the night. Erika stayed until about 12:30 or so. That helped. I actually slept like a rock...I think it's because I was so damn tired.The apartment is awesome. It does get really dark in here though if all the blinds are closed.Anyway, I made it through the first night without Sam...we will see how the rest of the week goes.

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1155781105275575742006-08-16T20:12:00.000-06:002006-08-16T20:18:25.290-06:00

Time is getting short...the day that I no longer live with Sam is getting closer.I'm very emotional this week. I start crying at any given moment and then I'm indifferent the next. I really hope that this stops when I have finally moved out.What hurts the most is knowing that he still loves me. I'm having a hard time putting that out of my mind. But I guess with time, all will be good again.

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1155116814832879252006-08-09T03:30:00.000-06:002006-08-09T03:46:54.846-06:00

I'm back at the airport and there is this couple sitting in front of me at the terminal that look like they'd rather slit each others throats than travel together. Ugghh...I hope they don't sit near me on the plane. I really don't want those vibes near me...My last day home was awesome. My Dad and I hung out with my Uncle and saw some old school friends of his for breakfast. We ate at SHONEY'S!

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1154922948401080472006-08-06T21:39:00.000-06:002006-08-09T03:30:00.016-06:00

Today was the day of the big BBQ at my cousin's house. I had no idea it was going to be as huge as it was. All of my aunts were there as well as most of my cousins and their kids. Three of my cousins didn't show but that's a whole soap opera in itself...I have to admit, I didn't expect to be so happy to see my family. I've been gone for so long that I thought it was just going to be awkward. In a

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1154663558734624612006-08-03T21:52:00.000-06:002006-08-03T21:52:38.803-06:00

08/03/2006 6:45 AM Atlanta – After an insanely long day at work and a long drive to the airport…I am now in Atlanta. Layover was 3 hours…a really long time to have to wander aimlessly around an airport. Finally broke down and went to the news stand to get a pack of cigarettes and damn near fell over - $7.05!!! for ONE pack of cigarettes. The clerk assured me though that that was an airport price

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1153709633498851462006-07-23T20:50:00.000-06:002006-11-26T13:04:56.733-07:00

This is hard...harder than I thought.I was all ready to commence with the single life. I am out there having a good time...being single. Fantastic! And then I come home and it all hits me...what the fuck!??!We're roomates who used to be a couple and we're still having sex. How strange is that? That can't be good for one's psyche, can it? And why do I do it? I have no clue. I just know that I need

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1152469673998508592006-07-09T12:25:00.000-06:002006-07-09T12:27:54.006-06:00

Now that I've been able to remove the tire tread marks from the bus that ran over me, I can clearly think about what my future may hold.I have had some time to think and have come to the conclusion that all things happen for a reason. I am feeling a sense of relief that now I can move forward with my life and do the things I want to do. I am actually excited about moving out and starting over on

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1152240955402144952006-07-06T20:47:00.000-06:002006-07-07T23:55:28.620-06:00

7/6/2006So last night, I went to see Damien Rice and after leaving early, my friends and I decided we would go to Old Chicago to get some food. We pull into the parking lot and I see Sam's truck. I get excited because I get to see my boyfriend in a social setting for a change...except when I walked in, he was sitting in a corner with another girl...that I didn't know. Just him and her having

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1151848444858631752006-07-02T07:30:00.000-06:002006-07-06T07:18:32.233-06:00

So...as I posted previously, I did not get an interview for the second job I applied for. Yeah...pretty sad about that...so I got over it! I'm an adult, I can take rejection, right?Especially when it's followed up with an offer for the first position that I applied for!Ha ha...yep, you read that right. They offered me the first job. There were two more openings and before they even re-posted it,

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1150818118755910912006-06-20T09:29:00.000-06:002006-06-20T09:44:52.570-06:00

So as you may know, I applied for two new positions at work. I interviewed for the first one and was told earlier this week that I did not get it. I was told that my interview was impressive and that I have great potential to go far in the company, but I was lacking "seasoning". So some other girl with a few more months of experience got the position that could have been mine.Yesterday they

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1150041357436842752006-06-11T09:19:00.000-06:002006-06-11T09:55:58.443-06:00

So it's 06-06-06 and apparently I have a wild hair up my ass. Sam comes home exhausted... been trying to start a new business with his buddy Tim and got thrown into it all at once before they were ready. I started telling him about having applied for the two positions at work... he's flipping channels... I explain how exciting this could be... he nods, still flipping channels... I move on. I then

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1149742269785387352006-06-07T22:41:00.000-06:002006-06-07T22:53:12.550-06:00

...ok, maybe not EVER, but pretty damn close! Went to see The Omen today and I gotta say, it scared the shit out of me. It was definitely more creepy and scary than the original. Anyway, for those of you who scare easily...a must see. For those of you who are looking for sophisticated terror...maybe not so much. I will say this, The Omen has all the qualities a horror movie should have. It's

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1149561009813076252006-06-05T20:11:00.000-06:002006-06-05T20:30:09.826-06:00

So I am now a claims adjuster. Everyday I talk to people that have been in some sort of accident. Tragic for some, minor for others. The ones I love though are the ones who file a claim and then expect that things are to have been done already.I spoke with a lady today who had called in a claim on Friday. Saturday I tried to call our insured. No luck. Today is Monday and the lady calls back

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1148177001721577542006-05-20T19:25:00.000-06:002006-05-26T11:56:59.696-06:00

Ok, I admit it...I'm addicted. I can't help it. I ended up on MySpace by accident and a friend of mine found me after I had already forgotten about it and now I'm hooked. I check it constantly...did someone add me to their list? Has anyone posted a comment about me? Who can I find that I haven't seen or talked to in umpteen-thousand years? It's pathetic really...after all we're all grown ups and

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1147051658356353252006-05-07T19:08:00.000-06:002006-05-14T22:30:52.713-06:00

I have come to realize that I have a great set of friends. I have those that are close to me and see me everyday and then there are those that I haven't seen in forever that still love me. I never valued friendships much when I was younger, but now I cherish them. It never occurred to me how important friends can be when I was growing up. I moved around so much I never had time to build long

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1146422784378483042006-04-30T12:24:00.000-06:002006-04-30T12:52:40.420-06:00

I kind of re-read my last post and realized that, 'Wow, I was on a rampage!'. It's amazing what hormones will do to your brain. I have visions of those wee little buggers sneaking around in my system trying to figure out what they can fuck with and then deciding 'Oooh, the brain...let's play with the brain!' PMS blows chunks!I'm happy that my boyfriend does not read my blogs nor does he have any

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1145801118349835142006-04-23T08:05:00.000-06:002006-05-07T19:34:51.783-06:00

Sometimes I don’t know if I’m coming or going. The last few days have been tense, distant and cold. I don’t know if he’s just tired of me or if he’s just irritated and doesn’t want to have anything to do with me. Either way, it’s fucking annoying. He says he still loves me. It doesn't feel like he gives a shit about anything that I do. He doesn’t ask me how my job is going even when I ask about

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1139152109635586862006-02-05T07:57:00.000-07:002006-02-05T08:09:03.876-07:00

I got a promotion!!! I asked for it and I got it. I've never done that before. I feel like a big girl now...Now I think I'll finally be able to get out of my financial abyss that I have been residing in for the last few months. That's exciting...I can also quit my second job - don't know if I want to...I'm feeling greedy right now. I like the idea of extra money coming in to do with what I want.

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1136938262249680262006-01-10T17:08:00.000-07:002006-01-10T17:11:02.256-07:00

I went to the dentist today and thought I was just going in for an X-Ray. I had a molar that had been bothering me and I figured I'd get them to check it out. I knew I was going to have it pulled but man I didn't expect this kind of pain. The whole left side of my mouth is throbbing right now... I have one stitch where my tooth used to be and I'm still bleeding. This sucks!

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1134539378919526162005-12-13T22:48:00.000-07:002005-12-13T22:49:38.926-07:00

My truck is fixed! My boyfriend rocks! And I start my new job tomorrow night on one of the biggest sale days...Woohoo!!!I think I'm going to explode...

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1134362185477213652005-12-11T21:25:00.000-07:002005-12-11T21:36:25.483-07:00

So I went out this weekend and got a second job. I figure, I have debts beyond my means, I need to do something to catch up. So, now I'll be working as Sales Associate at Foley's, soon to be known as Macy's.My friends will probably forget what I look like because I'll be working all the time. I'll probably forget what I look like.My truck should be fixed tomorrow. At least that is the promise

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1134101794958029122005-12-08T21:06:00.000-07:002005-12-08T21:23:22.986-07:00

Today my Jeep took a shit on my way in to work. It was -9 degrees when I started it to let it warm up. I let it run for 20 minutes before even trying to drive. On the way to work, the 'Check Engine' light came on and I noticed white smoke coming from the front. At first I thought it was the snow blowing back from the hood but then I realized it couldn't have been. I was only going 25 mph. Luckily

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1133816045162576292005-12-05T13:54:00.000-07:002005-12-08T21:06:08.363-07:00

It’s official!I am now a Colorado Citizen. I went today to get my truck registered as well as get my driver’s license. The roads are crap in The Springs and driving around in the snow and ice was quite the adventure but Sam and I muddled through. One thing I will say is that Colorado does not make it easy to get registered. I looked online to find out where I needed to go and found one location

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1133657750164786622005-12-03T17:49:00.000-07:002005-12-03T17:55:50.166-07:00

Well, winter has officially arrived in Colorado Springs.I woke up this morning to the phone ringing. It was my friend Shanna - the only person who calls me at the ungodly hour of 7:45 AM on a Saturday - and as I was reaching for the phone in our office, I looked out the window. The first words out of my mouth as I hit the "talk" button were "HOLY SHIT!". The outside world had been turned into a

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19531920.post-1133575054035209192005-12-02T18:52:00.000-07:002005-12-02T18:57:34.043-07:00

Ok, this blogging thing is completely new to me. I thought I would try it - maybe it will keep me from talking so much. Half the time I don't really have anything to say but sometimes I can come up with a good thought or two...Anyway, for now I don't have anything exciting to say...so that's it for now.

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